October 14
To the tumbling world.
Im not in a good mood
nor do I feel happy
I don’t feel well
And I think more and more
That every choice I’ve made in the past month
Has been a wrong one.
Nothing is going right
It just keeps going wrong
He won’t talk to me
And all I feel alone
He won’t listen to me
Or understand what I mean
Or even be the him he was
The him I fell in love with
The him that is him
And not this weird thing he’s become
He’s not mine anymore
He doesn’t love me like he says
And I should see that
When I think how
Before,
He used to hold me
Kiss me
Talk with me
Infront of his friends and alone
And he didn’t care
Cause to him
I was all that mattered.
But now
He won’t even look at me
When we’re not alone.
He never says I love you
When we’re on the phone
He never trys to see me
Never makes the effort
Never even texts me
Cause it’s “rude”
If he’s with ANYONE.
He won’t answer the phone
He won’t hear my plee
He won’t hear me cry
For all we used to be.
Now I know what I should do
I know what is right
But I can’t bring myself to do it
Not ever
Cause he is all I ever wanted
All I will ever want.
And so I will spend
The rest of my days
Til the day I die
Just praying
Hoping
That one day
Everything will be the same
Just as it was before
And he’ll look at me
And he’ll say
“Im sorry
I wasnt me
But Im back
And Im staying
Cause all I want is you
No matter what anyone thinks
Let them see
Let them think
Cause all that matters to me
is being with you.
Until the end of my days.
Your all I want,
Will want,
And have wanted
And Im sorry
Sorry I went away”
But I’ll keep dreaming
From now
Until my dying day.
Cause this
I know
It won’t happen.
Not ever.
I’ve lost everything I want
Will ever want
And have ever wanted.
And I don’t think he’s coming back.
